The Gift

I read a really great book the past few days. Its called "The Gift" by Richard Paul Evans. Gosh, it was so amazing to read and reflect on. The book is about a man who has something horrific happen to him on Christmas day. 2 years in a row something bad happens to him. Then he meets a woman who has a boy who has the gift of healing. The boy's mother and sister kept it a secret until something happened and a person on the street saw him heal something. People came to see the boy so that he could heal them or one of their loved ones. The problem is every time the boy heals someone he gets sick... really sick. So you should read the book to find out what happens and how they deal with everything.
It's a really beautiful book and it includes a lot of questions that really made me think as well as some quotes from the mans journal. Something I read last night was really striking and this is taken directly from the book, "What good is a life prolonged if it only extends the season of cowardice and sin? What good is a new heart if it's only to be filled with hate or regret- or new eyes, if all they can see is criticism and intolerance? These are questions we must all ask ourselves." I love that because it is just so true. I am asking myself these questions and something that I was thinking about is that eternity is sure. It is something that we do have available to us but it is up to us whether we will accept the gift of salvation and go to Heaven. The problems we face right now are truly just temporary (though it may not seem that way) and it is up to us to keep in mind that our complete and total goal is Heaven with Jesus.
These were some thoughts I wanted to share. I highly encourage you to pick the book up and read it because it might change your thinking some and it might open your mind/eyes a little bit more. God bless you!!


"If You Want It, You Gotta Work For It"

Nothing is really simple anymore. Everything gets complicated time after time. However I have learned that the one thing that is not complicated and truly is simple is God's love. Sometimes we want to know why God loves us and why He would send His Son to die for us. After all, that is why we celebrate Christmas, but I think the very simple answer to that question is He created us we are His children and He loves us. Regardless of what we do, He will always love us. If you have kids, don't you love them? And won't you always love them regardless of what they do? I think so. Sure, parents can disappointed in their kids, but they always love them nonetheless.

However simple God's love is, the world tells us something much different. The world tells us that if we want it we have to work for it. Which is true... partially. It depends on what you are speaking of. Let's say you want to lose weight. If you really want to lose weight, then you will have to work for it. You will have to eat better and work out. If you want a job (or to keep one) you will have to work for it. And while the Bible does tell us to serve and be the Church, the Bible never tells us that we can earn our way to Heaven - that we can work our way there. What we do for the least of these will count somehow, but it doesn't matter how many good things you do or how good you are. Eternity cannot be earned. Jesus died on the Cross as a gift. Jesus came to earth as a gift. God has given us the choice as to whether we will accept the gift and live for Him or if we will reject it and live for ourselves. The ball is in your court, you get to choose whether you will give it back to Him or keep it yourself.

I want you to know that while this week you give gifts and receive some God has given you many gifts. Some physical and some spiritual. I'm not sure what your physical gifts may be, but I do know some of the spiritual:
The Cross,
His Love,

If you will, please join me this week in thanking the Father for these wonderful gifts and blessings He has given us. Enjoy time with your family. Merry CHRISTmas!!!


What Does Christmas Mean?

What does Christmas mean?

Christmas is so special. Its a time of giving and receiving. A time of celebrating. A time to spend with family. But sometimes the meaning of Christmas gets lost in all of that. What does Christmas mean? It means this:

"For God so loved the world (you and me) that He gave His one and only Son (Jesus), that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." - John 3:16

That's it. It means God brought a Baby into the world for US so that we can live for HIM, to die on the Cross for US so that we don't have to spend eternity in Hell, but can live forever with Him in Heaven. That is the true meaning of CHRISTmas.

I was watching "The Grinch" with Jim Carrey (one of my favorite movies) a couple nights ago and in it the Grinch says, "Maybe Christmas doesn't come from a store, maybe.. just maybe it means just a little bit more." I really like that because it is true. It gives a bit more depth than just go out and buy presents and get presents. He is saying that Christmas isn't just about buying things or getting things, but celebrating something... Someone bigger than ourselves.

I can get so wrong this time of year thinking it is all about the presents. Nothing is wrong with giving or receiving, not at all. However losing sight of why we celebrate Christmas; that is something very wrong.

I want to remind you that the reason for the season is Jesus Christ and celebrating not only His birth, but also why He came to this earth and what He did for us. He loves you! Blessings to you and have a Merry Christmas!!


Who You're Not Holds You Back

"It's not who you are that holds you back... it's who you think you're not." - Author Unknown

This is so true. Why is it that we let the things that we are not hold us back? It doesn't make sense to me. I let some of the dumbest things hold me back simply because I feel as though I can't do something or I don't have the ability when the Lord is telling me that HE can do ANYTHING; not just some things, but ALL THINGS!

The fear of the unknown is what holds us back. The fear that you may fail and people may see that holds us back. Maybe not for you, but for me I know it does. My heart has been shattered into a million different pieces before and the only One able to heal that is God. The fear that my heart may be shattered again has held me back to a certain extent.

But the truth is, God has given me LIFE and my life is meant to be lived in Him not in fear. So is yours. You don't need to fear what you're not because we are human beings who will fail and when we fail and fall flat on our faces God is there to pick us back up and forgive us. He is a GREAT God and knows all. He knows you. He knows me. That is so great to have a loving God who knows us and wants to know us and wants us to know Him. It truly is Awesome.

My challenge to myself and to you is to as though you can do anything through Christ because that is the cold hard truth. You CAN do anything through Christ and He gives you the strength to do so. Don't think that you can't do anything and don't ever let someone tell you that you can't do something. Let people see the BIG God we serve through our actions, living as we should, God can do anything. Jesus loves you so much! Merry CHRISTmas! Stay blessed!



Something about the Christmas time fills me with peace. I was thinking about this last night as I was taking it in and then it was like a 'DUH' moment for me. The reason it is so peaceful is because this is the time Peace came into the world. Jesus came here to save us and peace is what He gave us.

I get it all wrong sometimes. Thinking Christmas is the time for gifts and wrapping paper and Christmas lights and there isn't wrong with any of those things, but sometimes it can cloudy the true reason for this season and that is to celebrate our Savior's birth. Christmas is a wonderful time to give and to receive, but it is especially important that none of us forget the very reason we celebrate. I'm sure you already know this, but I think all of us can use a reminder every once in a while. :)

This time of the year almost rejuvenates me and refreshes me in life - in my walk with the Lord, my physical strength, and my emotional strength. Its a time that gives me a new light and it is such an enjoyable time for me and my family. I love Christmas! Mainly because I love Jesus and love being able to celebrate the major Gift God gave me.

So I pray that you have a wonderful CHRISTmas time and that peace fills your heart as well as your families. Stay blessed! Have a wonderful week!


I've Used Your Grace To Do What I Please

"Time after time, I've used Your grace as a way to do what I please." Never Give Up on Me by Josh Bates

This morning I was worshiping and this song came on. That lyric above really stood out to me. Why? Because it's true. I've been reading the Book of Revelation and it has been opening my eyes more and more. Sometimes I forget what I am working towards and what my goal is. God has been revealing to me that life is much more than what I have been thinking it is. Pretty tough lesson to be learning.

Anyway, so when I heard that part of the song this morning I realized that that is exactly what I have been doing. I have been doing what I want and then taking for granted God's grace and what He did so that we could have this open door with Him. I started to cry because I mean, that's not something I want to do. I feel like I have been using God so that I can do whatever I want and live as I please. The problem here is submission. When I don't submit to God (because I think I know better, or want to do what I want to do) then it really becomes nothing but using Him. I read this this morning:

"Submit to God and be at peace with Him; in this way prosperity will come to you." - Job 22:21

Submitting to God is the answer to the problem. The grace of God simply brings me to my knees and strikes me in awe of Him. We serve such an Awesome God that even when we mess up, He can and will forgive us as long as we come to Him with a repentant heart.

I sit here typing this as I have submitted myself back to God. I am ready to be serious about my goal in life and where He leads me. I am forgiven. I am redeemed. I am chosen. I am FREE!!! God has SET. ME. FREE. and I cannot thank Him enough. You can be set free too. Just ask Him. Ask and you shall receive. Jesus loves you!!! Stay blessed!


Stop and Stare

I was reminded of this during yesterday (when it snowed which is quite rare here) and this morning when I was reading another blog.

When was the last time that you stood in awe of something the Lord did or made or whatever?

Sometimes it seems as though our culture has dumbed us down enough that if it doesn't come in a TV show or movie form, its not that great. Not saying that anything is wrong with TV shows or movies (I mean, come on, there are some wonderful movies out there! ;) but if all we do is live through a TV something is wrong. I am convicting myself of this. I watch way too much TV at times, nothing gets done when I just sit and watch someone else live their life. God has blessed you and me with a life. We are breathing, able to do what we want when we want and why waste our life away when we can be living it up for Jesus Christ and follow His will for each of our lives?

The sad thing about our culture is that some of the simple things, like snow falling or a rainbow in the sky, don't seem to phase us anymore and because our culture is so fast paced and 'do this now' mentality we don't stop for one minute to enjoy the incredible beauty of our Creator.

"Lord, I have heard of Your fame; I stand in awe of Your deeds, Lord." Habakkuk 3:2 So much is missed simply because no one wants to stop and be in awe of God's beautiful creations. We live as the generation who doesn't want to stop. As the generation who has cell phones and portable DVD players. All those things are fine, but there is a time to stop and stare at the things that are worthy of our attention.

Isn't your heart stirred when you see the beginning of spring or the first snow fall of the year? Or don't you feel something when there is a little baby in a stroller or a puppy playing around? We were built to feel and live as the small human beings we are. We can do anything through Christ and we should live as that, but there is no need to forget about the GREAT things our God has made.

Today is Sunday (duh!), the day of rest. Since this is the one day of the week you can actually relax and not do work, how about you find something... anything to truly take in the beauty of whatever it is and stand in awe of what He has made. Don't miss out just because you feel as though you "just can't stop" because that is one of satan's lies. You can stop and stare. Stay blessed and have a great Sunday!!!


The Simple Way

This morning I was deleting junk email and I thought, gosh I wish it was so easy to just get the sin out of my life by clicking the trash button. Maybe it can be. Probably not quite as easy, because "nothing worth having comes easy." but maybe it can be just as simple.

Thinking about it, sometimes I can just put the sin I do in the trash, but I choose not to. I choose to hold on to it and toy around with it and then I end up getting in trouble. Then, I start asking God why I am having so much trouble and problems and when I start thinking back to where it all began I see that had I just listened to His still, small voice I wouldn't be where I am / where I was.

Its amazing what God can teach you when you are willing to listen. Think about it. But the question is, do you listen? I asked myself the same question. Do I listen to God and what He says? The answer: sometimes. That isn't good enough though. If I only listen to God sometimes, then I am missing out on so much. All that He has for me and all that He wants for me. Same for you. If you only listen to Him sometimes you are missing out. The most rewarding thing to do is to listen to Him and what He says and speaks to our hearts because when we do that we can finally see all that He wants us to see here on earth, and when we get to Heaven new doors will be opened up and then we can finally see everything.

The simple way sometimes is the best way. Loving God and loving others is simple. Hard to do, maybe, but simple nonetheless. I choose today, to put sin in the trash and simply love. I love you all!!!! Stay blessed!


Forget What I Look Like?!

"Anyone who listens to the Word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in the mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like." James 1:23-24

I literally laughed out loud when I read that verse. Not making fun of it, but just because it seems funny to me that someone would forget what they look like after just looking at themselves. Really thinking about it though, I realized just how extremely true that is. If I'm not taking God's Word seriously, if I'm not putting it to practice every single day, then it is just as silly... possibly even stupid, as if I look at myself in the mirror and forget what I look like.

I love how God's Word is so alive. It's like one day I think, Lord, Your Word is so hard to grasp and I don't understand it. And then one day I read a passage like the verses above and it's like a kick in the butt to not buy into the "God's Word doesn't make any sense. He made for people 2,000 years ago, it's not relevant today." because it totally is relevant to every body's lives'. Not just mine. Not just yours. But EVERY BODY'S!!!! That why our God is so Awesome and Incredible because He gets each one of us individually and doesn't forget any one of us. I am in awe of that. Just the fact that God could be so amazingly Powerful and Holy. These days people almost forget the holiness of our Savior and place into other categories. Sure, Jesus can be your best Friend. He is mine, but you mustn't forget that He is still a King and Lord. He shouldn't be taken down to our level of mind. He is far greater than we are and that is why we love Him and live for Him. Because really, would you live for someone who has all the things you do? Who has all the same type of talents you do? Maybe. More than likely though, you wouldn't. I wouldn't. We have such a great need for a Savior. He has made special needs in our lives that only He can fill because if other people could fill those needs we would forget all about Him.

God has been showing different things the past week and I am loving it and dis-liking it all at the same time. When the Lord shows me things that are hard to grasp or difficult to swallow, I don't like it, but I know that the hard things are the things I need to take in the most. It's hard, but beautiful all at the same time. That's kind of the way I think of my life as a Christian. To be a follower of Jesus is hard, but beautiful all at the same time.

These are the things the Lord has been teaching me and I pray they speak to your heart as they have mine. Don't forget what you look like. Hold onto it. I love you all!!!! Have a wonderfully blessed weekend!


Happy Thanksgiving!!!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! Spend some time with your family and appreciate the things you have. I am thankful for a crazy, but loving family, a faithful God and so much more. With out Him I would have nothing. I love y'all!!!!!!!!


Learning Season...

Right now I am in a season of learning. I am learning to be content with what I have and where I am and yet still have hopes and dreams and know that the Big God I serve can allow them to come to pass. I am learning to pray constantly and consistently as 1 Thessalonians 5:17 says. I am learning how to deal with things that are out of my hands that I cannot control.

My brain and heart are processing so much right now and it's really good and hard and there are a lot of tears right now and a lot of heart ache, but I know that the great and mighty God I serve will take care of me. I just need it to sink a little deeper into my heart.

So during this season I will stand firm on the Word of God and know that in time it will all pass and I will be stronger in Him for it. Stay blessed, you guys!!!

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Beyond Jabez

I read a wonderful book this past week by Bruce Wilkinson. It's called 'Beyond Jabez'. I read the first book which is "The Prayer of Jabez" and I highly recommend it, but this book explains it all the more further and has a few stories on how God has enlarged people's territories through this prayer.

God has big tasks and even bigger plans for all of us and if we believe that He will accomplish what He wants to accomplish through us, it will happen. All that is in God's big plan for you and for me can be brought about, but if we don't believe our God is as big as He truly is then, nothing will come from that. That is something very simple and basic, yet it is something that I am currently learning.

I want to encourage you to get this book because it will really help you to put your faith in action and to believe that God can and will do GREAT things in each of our lives according to His plan for us. Stay blessed!!!


Myself or Him?

"They say so much to just be yourself...but myself is so selfish! Why not more focus on being who Jesus is in you??" - Sarah Barlow

The above quote was from Sarah Barlow on twitter. If you want to check out her blog it is: http://sarahannephotography.blogspot.com/

I love what she said. Right after I read it I immediately agreed. People always say, "just be yourself." or "don't let people tell you who you are, just be you." but if I really am myself then chances are I'm going to be selfish, mean, envying the things I see, and so much more. Why not focus more on Jesus in me and who HE desires for me to be. I mean there is something none of us can change and that is that we are sinners. We were born into sin, and whether we want it to be that way or not, it is the way it is. We can't change it, but we can allow Jesus to change us and begin living in us and living through us.

I will always be a sinner. Probably because if I weren't I probably would have no need for a Savior. There is no way in the world to change the fact that I am a sinner and that I fail God all the time. That is my real self. But if I allow Jesus, to live in me and through me, then maybe my second self can be Him in me. I'm not sure, maybe not, but I know that I can at least try and let my second self be Him in me.

How about you? Are you gonna be yourself, or let it be God in you that shines through it all? Have a blessed weekend! Jesus loves you so much!!!!!!!


Three Years...

Today marks three years that I have been saved. Wow. This is such a special day to me because it is one of the many days that I can REALLY thank my Savior for opening my eyes to see what I needed to. This has been one of the most amazing journey's of my life and I honestly can say that I do not regret choosing God over myself and others. There have been happy tears as well as sad ones and angry ones, but through it all I have been strengthened to some degree and learned more and more how to rely on my Lord and trust Him. Being a Christian is a never ending journey and I love it. The Bible never says that it will be easy, but it does say God will be with us all the way. We can put our bottom dollar on that!!

Some of the things I have learned through the past 3 years is...
1) I don't have all the answers and that's okay.
2) Crying doesn't make you weak.
3) Trusting in God completely might be scary, but it's the right choice.
4) I can't put a mask or front on before God. He sees right through it.

Those are just some the high points, but there are many other things the Lord has taught me and shown me. If you don't have that personal relationship with God, I strongly urge you to start one. He will change your life. Maybe that is why you don't have one already and maybe it's not. Just please think about it, because God will rock your world in so many different ways you won't be able to tell everybody about them all. If you are interested in one, pray the prayer on the side of my blog (in pink) and then leave me a comment so I can pray for you. If you aren't sure, leave me a comment and maybe I can help you through it.

I love you all!!!! May God shower blessings on you!


To the Vets and Soldiers...

Happy Veterans Day!! I want to take a few minutes and thank all the veterans and soldiers out there. You guys are incredible and I am so so thankful for everything that you do. Fighting for our freedom so bravely. I admire what you guys do so much because I know that I am too big of a chicken to go out there and do it myself! ha ha Just want y'all to know that we as Americans appreciate all that you do and pray for you and your families every day. We love you all!!

If you will today, just take some time out and pray for our soldiers. They are doing something that very few of us can and we need to show our support to them. Pray for them and their families as will I today and every day.

As many of you know a week tomorrow will mark one week of the horrific shooting at Fort Hood. If you don't what happened, a man started shooting there and killed 13 people along with an unborn baby (which really makes it 14 dead) and injured 30 others. It saddens me that someone would do that, but I rest assured that justice will be served. I was watching the memorial yesterday and couldn't help but cry. Especially when they did the role call and the people that are dead couldn't say "Here." because they aren't there. So sad. So please take out some time today to pray for these families as well as they are grieving over their loved ones.

These brave men and women who serve our country are true hero's and deserve more than just one day of remembrance, but for now we celebrate all of them out there, who are just really amazing people. Thank you, soldiers, for answering the call God gave you. I love every one of you as does Jesus!!!!! Stay blessed!


Stranded on an Island

Last night I was trying to get to sleep but a question kept in my mind that finally I had to think about. The question...
What if I was stuck on an island with nothing but my Bible and water?

Many other questions came to me after that one,
Would I trust in God to provide for me? Would I simply trust in Him? What would my attitude be? What would my heart be like?

These questions are ones that won't get answered unless I was stranded on an island, but still I want my attitude and heart and life to be as though I am stranded somewhere and all I have is God and His Word. Maybe this seems silly to you, but really I am serious about this. I want to establish that kind of trust with Him that no one and nothing could shake is what I desire to have with the Lord. I believe in order to have that kind of relationship and trust with Him I have to put effort in. The main thing being that I wouldn't try to control anything, but give it all up to Him. That would be what I need to do.

What about you? If you were stranded on island with nothing but your Bible and some water (and God of course ;) what would your attitude be? Would you trust Him?

We as people have got to stop trying to control everything. Some things just cannot be controled no matter how hard you try. Instead of being angered or sad that you can't control some things count it a blessing that you have a God who controls the heavens and the earth, and that we can put total trust and hope in Him. We were meant to rely on the One who created us along with the few special people He placed in our lives.

I pray today that you and I find the answers to the questions above, not that we are stuck on an island, but that we have an attitude as if we were stranded we would/will have an attitude and a heart for the Lord and that our full trust would be placed in Him and that our full heart and life would be placed in Him as well. Love you all and stay blessed!!


Humble Me

"Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up." James 4:10

This is my verse for the week. Right now I am really trying to let it sink into my life and heart. Sometimes it is so hard to be humble. Especially when everything around us - TV, Internet, music, books, etc., tells us that we are great and make the world a better place and... blah blah blah. It isn't true though. I mean, yes you are fearfully and wonderfully made, the Word of God says that (check out Psalm 139), but we aren't meant to live as though the world revolves around us. It revolves around Him and when we realize that and live like that, then we can be lifted up by Jesus.

I struggle a lot sometimes with being humble and making sure that I know that everything is about Him. It isn't easy, for sure. That is why I am so glad to have an understanding God who will walk hand in hand with me (and you) and help me get through the struggles and trials that I face every single day. I can trust that Jesus has my back and that when everything tells me something different, He has the ultimate say so in my life. That is why I am not of this world, because the world tells us to "go with the flow" and "be your ultimate power" but the Bible says to draw near to God and He will draw near to us. To let Him define us and to trust in Him with all our heart and not lean on our own understanding. When we trust in Him, when we humble ourselves and let Him be God, to say we are blessed is an under statement. Blessings really don't have to physically be something in my opinion. A blessing can simply be an attitude change or an understanding of something that is hard to grasp. Those are blessings to me.

Anyway, I wanted to invite you to use this as your verse for the week and live it. It won't be easy, but God never said that life would be easy. But He did say that He will go through everything with us and that we have nothing to fear. I am going to try and live it as best as I can. If I fail today, I will pick it back up tomorrow and try harder. He is a forgiving God. Jesus, humble me. I love you all! Stay blessed!!!



I just finshed an amazing book by Matt Redman called 'Facedown'. In it Matt talks about worship and how when we have a true worship experience we fall facedown and come to the realization of how Awesome our God is. He explains how worship has gotten weakened by some and how we can get back to where we are like the angels in Heaven, rejoicing and singing before the Lord all day.

There are many quotes in this book that caught my eye and might catch yours as well. I suggest you get this book because it has the potential to change some of your views, through God, of what real and true worship is. It ceratainly has changed my views in some things and opened my eyes a good bit. Reading it has been a major blessing to my life and heart.

I love you all and have a blessed weekend!!! =)


Man or God? Both!

Something I have been learning for the past few days is that I have a partial view of Jesus and that having a partial view is having a distorted view of Him. What I have learned is that sometimes I can get so attached to the 'Man' Jesus that I forget about the God part of Jesus. I forget about all of His power and might and instead focus more on the Jesus that walked the earth and faced the same things I face. There is something wrong when all you think of when you think of Jesus is a man. Because while physically He was a man, inside He is God. Probably this is nothing new to you, but part of it was new to me.

You can't simply think Cross without thinking of Crown, when speaking of Jesus. Because while He took our sin on and brought us forgiveness, He also is sitting on the throne right next to His Father. Jesus is Great, Mighty, Wonderful. He is far too great for me to fit Him inside of my little mold. I can't fit Him inside of my mold, regardless of how hard I try because He is TOO GREAT! I am really speaking to myself more than I am you in this post simply because it is something that I really want deep within my heart to know.

The names of Jesus in the Bible are really amazing to help us all understand the God part of Him and not just the man part of Him. Here are some of His names -
Wonderful Counselor,
Alpha and Omega,
The Beginning and the End,
Mighty Warrior,
Prince of Peace,
Everlasting Light,

Today I am going to meditate on the whole Jesus, not just part. Have a wonderful weekend!!!


One Year

Wow! I cannot believe it, but this month marks my one year blog-o-versary! One year I have had this blog and one year of many blessings, trials, and love.

I want to thank you, my wonderful readers, for being amazing. I have been blessed by y'all so much, you don't even know. Through this blog I have had the opportunity to read some of the most amazing blogs. I have also had the opportunity to share what the Lord has been teaching me and experiences I have had through this blog.

God, thank You for blessing me with this blog and for the people I have encountered through it. I pray for many more years of posting and loving on people, which is what You have called me to do. I love You.

Love you all and have a blessed day!!!

Life is a Prize

"... but your life shall be as a prize to you..." - Jeremiah 39:18

If you have been watching the news at all, then chances are you have seen something about this case. Three girls went for a drive (possibly to look at stars) and somehow they went off the road and into lake. They were found dead yesterday. My heart breaks for these girls and their families. They were in their twenties (one just barely in hers) and had all of life before them and then their lives are just gone. It's amazing how things can really affect you, because the first thing I thought of this morning was them. I thought about their lives, their families and friends left behind, and the hurt that must be lingering between all of them. It so horrific and sad.
I thought the verse from Jeremiah fit well because life really shouldn't be taken lightly, like you have a "right" to be here, because all in all you never know when your life may end. I mean this has just messed me up because it has gotten me thinking about things that aren't really fun or nice to think about. At first I tried blocking the thoughts, but then I realized that God is trying to speak to me and let me know that while this might now happen to me, life is such a precious gift and it is meant to be lived in Him and to the fullest. I have taken my life for granted and I no longer want to do that. Through God and the lives of these beautiful young women I have learned that.
Don't take your life for granted. Go out and do what you think you can't and tell people about the love of Jesus Christ. Today, I hope you will join me in prayer for the families and friends and teammates of these 3 young women. That they will let God be their strength.
RIP Kyrstin Gemar, Afton Williamson, and Ashley Neufeld. God bless!


Does Anybody Care Anymore?

Something very important I have learned this past day and a half. That is that not many people care anymore, especially for human beings. These days it seems all people care for is money and lots of it. That saddens me because that is not how God intends for us as human beings to relate to one another. The most relation people have now is having sex with a random soul and then moving on.

Why is that? Why don't people care like they used to? I think it how something to do with the fact that our culture has lowered the bar for us as humans and instead of raising it to the standards God has for us, we have pretty much just accepted the "standards" the world has set.

And though much of the world doesn't care anymore, there are amazing people like my friends and family and you. :) If you didn't care you probably wouldn't be here reading this blog. And for that I thank you (for caring and for reading my blog :) because it is leaders like yourself and I that through the power of Jesus Christ we can change the world a little bit at a time. I can sit here and point out all the faults of the world and all the things that I dislike or wish were different, but until I get to the point where I choose to be the change that I wish to see, none of it will even matter.

So from today on I choose to care. I choose to love. Why? Because I am called to do so and it is what I want to do. I choose to BE the change I seek in this world and by that people will know the Lord through me. What about you? Will you do the same? I pray you will. love y'all!!

I leave you with these words that Shaun Alexander placed on his twitter page earlier today,

"Never give up on people. Love covers all things. Love turns people into champions.Love gives people vision & hope. Love changes lives forever!"


What Does It Mean?

I have just started doing verse's of the week. I just find a verse that speaks to my heart (usually the Lord points it out to me) and then I read every morning when I wake up and right before I go to sleep. This weeks is...

"You are my hiding place and my shield; I hope in Your word." - Psalm 119:114

"Hiding place. What does that mean? Does it mean that You, Jesus are the One I share all my secrets with and keep all my treasures hidden in? Or does it mean that You are the One I run to when I am afraid?"

Well actually it is both. The Lord is our hiding place in both meanings as in the One we store all our treasures in as well as being the One we run to, not just when we are scared, but all the time.

I really like that verse from Psalm 119 because it really is teaching me to put my trust in Jesus. So often I think I am trusting Jesus. I think I am letting Him lead the way and be in the "Drivers seat" if you will, but then I realize that I am planning everything out in my head still. It's like I am saying, "Yes, Lord, You can lead me, but right now I need to do this so after this I'll let You lead my fully." And so this week is really a time for me to just lay my total life in His hands completely, this time. And allow the Lord to my hiding place, my shield, and have hope in His Word.

Which really thinking about it, is another thing that I have failed to do totally, that being that I haven't fully hoped in the Word of God. Why? Because life has given me situations (I'm sure yours has too) that have been extremely hopeless and I have forgotten God promises at times and forgotten the mightiness of my Savior!!!! But that is the truth straight from His Word, that He IS MIGHTY and that HE CAN deliver us all from every situation that could be created. WE just have to have HOPE in Him!

This is what I have been learning. Have a wonderfully blessed week! love you guys!!


You Fail Us NOT

The song below, I love. It is one that I have been worshiping to this past week. It is just so true and speaks straight from the heart and from the Truth in the Word of God. I wanted to share the lyrics with you and hope that they speak straight to you!!! Love y'all!! Happy November!!

Fail Us Not - 1000 Generations
Failure doesn't phase you.

Worry doesn't win.
Lost doesn't leave you afraid to start again.
Our sin doesn't shock you.
Our shame doesn't shame you at all.
Mistakes do not move you.
Terror doesn't tame.
Death doesn't doom you to life in the grave.
Our suffering doesn't scare you.
Our secrets won't surprise you at all.
At all.
There is nothing above you.
There is nothing beyond you.
There is nothing that you can't do.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No matter the war, our hope is secure.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
You fail us not.
Hatred doesn't hide you.
Evil doesn't ail.
Despair can't disguise you and tell you that you fail.
Our doubt doesn't daunt you.
Our darkness won't defeat you at all.
At all.
There is nothing above you.
There is nothing beyond you.
There is nothing that you can't do.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No matter the war, our hope is secure.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
Whatever will come, we'll rise above.
You fail us not, You fail us not.
No, You fail us not.
You fail us not


Enjoying God's Beauty

Yes, that is what I am doing. Enjoying God's beauty!!! :) The Lord has made so many beautiful things (whether it be people, nature, animals, etc.) and I don't take enough time to just thank Him for all the beauty He has placed around me, much less spend some time enjoying.

So as I have said many times before, fall is my favorite season. I love fall and everything that comes with it. Especially the leaves! I love to look at the beautiful colors that the leaves change into. And so today I went outside and gathered some of the most beautiful leaves I could find and decided to press them (put them between wax paper then iron them *with a towel on top so it doesn't melt the wax paper*). I try to do it every year because it sort of celebrates God's beauty in my opinion.

I just wanted to encourage you that wherever you are, just take a little time this weekend to enjoy the beauty God has blessed each of us with, all around us. Have an amazingly blessed weekend!!!


True Love

"Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat." - Mother Teresa

I find that quote amazing to me. Not because I've never heard it, but because it is so true. Things happen in life that cause other people to either not love or not be loved. I think it is so sad. Truly those people don't know the love of Jesus for them. I find it my mission to try and tell as many people as I can that Jesus really and truly loves them just as they are. I think that is difficult for people to believe because of the Church and how a lot of times we as Christians don't explain very well that while we are sinners and have a lot of faults, God really does accept every single one of us just as we are. Maybe it is because even some Christians don't really know that.

What I want you (yup, YOU) to understand is that Jesus loves you SO much! It does not matter where you have come from or what you have done, there is a God above who loves you just like you are and will gently help you weed out the things in your life that draw you away from Him and slowly you will begin to get nearer to Him. I wish I could really and truly tell you just how much He loves you, but that would be impossible since none of us really know how much He loves us all. I will never comprehend how much He loves me. Why? Because my little mind cannot grip such a great God and why He would love a lowly person like me. It just doesn't make sense, but I have learned that a lot of things in life don't make sense and some things are better left unknown. I don't need to know the reasons for why EVERYTHING happens, just certain things. I am learning to trust God with all that I have. It is a process.

I just want you to know right now that Jesus loves you so much!!!!!!!!!!! You are the apple of His eye for real and don't listen to a soul that tries to tell you that He doesn't because that is just another person who doesn't know how much God loves them. I pray tonight that you get to know the Lord a little better and grasp just a little bit more of His love for you! Love y'all!!


Restraining Myself

"I have restrained my feet from every evil way, that I may keep Your Word." Psalm 119:101

I read Psalm 119 this morning, which is a really beautiful chapter of Scripture and if you haven't read it, take some time today to read it in one sitting and allow God to open your heart to His Word. And the verse above is one (of many) that really stuck out to me. I could feel the Lord speaking to my heart through it. I was thinking and a question that popped into my head was, when have I restrained myself in order to keep the Lord's Word and do His will? I mean, really thinking about that I'm not sure I ever have.

However that is changing thanks to the Awesome God I serve!! I desire to restrain myself in order that I keep and follow Him and His Word. That is a calling on each and every one of our lives. And really it shows when you physically restrain, hold yourself back, in order to follow God with your whole heart and life. That's what I want - to follow God with my whole heart and life and hold myself back and give things up in order to keep His Word. That is a true desire of my heart. It is what I want to do.

These are just some thoughts I had this morning. Have a blessed, happy Monday!!! Jesus loves you so much!!!!


Love, Love, Love

Something that the Lord has been revealing to me is love. Ya' know, love is what we are called to do. It's not just an action, it's a way to be, but sometimes there are people who are just so HARD to love that I don't want to. I mean, haven't you had someone say or do something to you that was just totally uncalled for? And isn't it hard to love them? Well, certainly for me there are "those" people in my life. I wanted to not love them, to just let them go because really are they gonna notice anything different if I don't love them? I mean, if they really wanted my love they wouldn't be talking junk about me, right? Regardless of whether they do or don't want my love, they definitely want SOME BODY'S love and that Somebody is Jesus.

The people around you and me are searching. Maybe even you, yourself are searching. What you're searching for is love. Deep within each of us is our love tank and everybody NEEDS to fill their love tank. The love tank inside of you ultimately needs to be filled with Jesus and His love, but also there is room for love from certain people like friends and family. However some of us fill our love tanks with the wrong people. Instead of finding those godly friends, we find the ones who are into drinking and partying and let them inside of our hearts. Then, they take advantage of that and we get our hearts hurt bad which then leads to being one of "those" people who is hard to love. Why? Because hurting people hurt people. When I'm hurt I hurt others and I'm guessing you probably do the same. But we have got to stop the cycle because if we don't what God wants for us all can't be accomplished.

I want to love others. I cannot let something get in the way of that. My goal in life is to love God and love others. That to me, if fulfilling God's will and plan. Sure, there are things in between that, but when someone sees or hears about me I want them to say that I love God with all of my being and that I love people regardless. So here I am writing this and praying silently that the Lord will help me to achieve this. He knows me. He knows my heart. And He knows you. And I hope you know Him and His love for you, because if you don't, you have no idea what you are missing. I end this with a beautiful passage from 1 Corinthians 13:4-8,

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."


Football Mentality

As we all know, football is very big in the U.S.A. For good reason too, it's a great game and keeps most of us entertained. Something that I noticed is anytime someone interviews a member of a team after they lose usually they say something like this, "Well, we made some mistakes out there, but we just have to pick things up and move forward. We have to play a little better next week." And I think that is the mentality we need in life. We would all be so much more blessed if we said, "hey, I failed today. I made some mistakes I didn't want to make, but now I am going to move forward, forget about everything, make the needed changes and continue down the path the Lord has planned out for me."

God's grace is great enough and big enough for us to be able to do that. But sometimes we get so wrapped up in ourselves and our mistakes and listen the lies of the enemy that we forget about the greatness of God and His love for us all. Maybe not you, but I do. I allow some of the most stupid lies to get inside my head and instead of just moving forward and picking it up I end up going backwards.

So I want to encourage you and myself to allow God's grace to cover EVERYTHING. And believe me, God's grace really can cover everything. His love can cover everything. What Jesus did on the Cross for you and me says it all!! Pick yourself up, let God hold you in His arms, and move forward. He has a plan for you and all you have to do is wait for Him to reveal it piece by piece to you. I love you all and have a blessed weekend!!!! :))


Desires, Goals, Purpose

This verse pretty much sums up my heart and life this week, "I delight to Your will, O my God, and Your law is within my heart." - Psalm 40:8 I really do delight to do God's will for my life. It's my desire to do His will, but sometimes it's difficult doing it when all these lies from satan come into my head and just start blabbing at me. Has that ever happened to you? Doesn't it make you annoyed? Maybe not, but for me it really annoys me. But the thing that Jesus has been teaching me (or trying to anyway) is that HE is the TRUTH. What anybody else says really and truly does not matter because He needs to be overall Voice in my life. I WANT His voice to be the end all be all of my life. He really means the world to me and I want my actions to show that. I want people to be able to look at me and say, "hey, she really does want to do God's will and even though she fails sometimes and messes up big time (because I am not perfect) she still knows that God's grace covers that all and continues forth in the race toward the goal of life (Eternity with Jesus)."

I want God's Word to be within my heart - IN my heart. I have been learning about junk food. I'm not talking about the junk food you eat physically, but the junk food you eat spiritually. Spiritually I allow some things via the Internet, TV, music, etc that come into my mind and mess me up. God has been teaching me that my flesh is weak (which is why we have a NEED for Him and spending time with Him) but I have to be strong in Him and push away from the TV shows or whatever that make my mind a battlefield between me and it. The things that don't honor Him and benefit my relationship with Him.

Actually Psalm 40:8 is the verse of the week, but I haven't really been following it. God brought some questions for me to ask myself before I do anything,
Will this benefit Jesus and I and our relationship?
Will this help me achieve my purpose and goals in life?
Will this be an example or chance to share the Lord with somebody?

The answers to those questions, if it the best thing to do, is yes. If what I am wanting to do or about to do has even one no to one of those questions then I am not doing it. My eyes can become so cloudy sometimes and I lose sight of what the REAL and TRUE purpose of my being here on earth is, and that is to love God and love others. To love is to fulfill all of God's laws because you can't murder, steal, hate, etc if you have love. Real love is sharing with the people true Life (Jesus). Why? Because no one should suffer in Hell simply because there was a person who was too shy to share Jesus with them. I don't want to be that reason that someone didn't know the Lord. I am follower of Jesus. I FOLLOW Jesus. Jesus told the world of the Father, I follow in telling the world about Him, too.

This is what God has been teaching me and He laid it on my heart to share it with you. Many blessings to you all!! love ya'!!


Breaking Heart for His Child

"Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world." Philippians 2:14-15

I read that verse this morning when I was spending time with the Lord. It seemed to really jump out at me and it also fits in with something I was thinking about yesterday and this morning.

As some of you may have heard, there was a UConn player named Jasper Howard who stabbed to death Sunday. He had been at a dance and gotten into an argument. Sources say that an arrest might be made today. But in the midst of it all I was just thinking about how it seems no one can make a mistake anymore. You get into a little fight with someone and then someone gets ticked off and takes it further than it should have ever gone. It makes me sad and angry and frustrated. That 20 year old college student was the first in his family to go to college. He grew up in a horrific neighborhood in south Florida and moved to a place where he thought it would be safer. He started building a name for himself and just this past Saturday had an incredible game. All the talent and things he had going for him were just snatched away in a split second. It's not fair. That's life - it is never fair.

It makes me think that right now we need leaders to rise up now more than EVER before. WE (us -you and me) need to BE the lights of the world. Because some of our generation is crooked and perverse, and then you have some that aren't (you and me and Jasper). My heart is broken for this guy and all the others out there who are killed or hurting in our world. Tears are welling up in my eyes right now just thinking about these beautiful children of God. They and you don't deserve the awful things that life has dealt you. The mean things that people say or do, it just isn't fair to you.

You are prince or princess of the Most High, don't forget that! You have a purpose specifically made for you by God. He doesn't need you, but He does WANT you. You play a special part in the body of Christ and when you don't put in the effort to play the role God has for you it doesn't turn out right for both you and our world. You make a difference and an impact.

Another thing that Jasper Howard has reminded me is that life really is short. No one is guaranteed another day or hour or even a minute. Which is why it is so vital to get right in our relationships with the Lord and live out His plan for us. I had forgotten that. So I thank God and Jasper for reminding me. Through this tragic crime God will be glorified. Please join me in prayer for his family, friends, and teammates. All of which are suffering right now and could use some support. And if you don't know Jesus please let me know. If you are ready to accept Him and get your life together before it is too late you can pray the prayer on the side of my blog (in pink). Then please, please, please leave me a comment so I can pray for you during the most exciting journey of your life! :) I love you all so much and pray you have a blessed day!!


Who's Leading Who?

Well I was gonna post this yesterday, but I wasn't feeling it, so I didn't. So here I am posting what I experienced yesterday during worship. :)

I was worshipping and for some reason I was just having some trouble staying focused on the Lord. I was going through all the things I needed to do and some of the things I wanted to do and finally Jesus was speaking to me and said, "Let ME lead you." I knew at that moment what He was speaking about and why. I spend way too much time trying to make sure everything is just so and works out just like I want it and regardless of how many times He tells me to let Him be the Driver I still don't always listen and end up getting everything messed up.

I can sometimes be a perfectionist. Most of the time I'm not, but I do have my moments. And God is just speaking to me saying, "Forget everything you once held dear to your heart and let Me place the things I have for you in it. Let Me lead you in the direction I want you to go in. Let Me have your heart again." It's like I thought I had given the Lord my whole heart and then I got this amazing wake up call that was like, "you might think you have given Me every piece of you, but you are still holding back. You don't have to because I love you." That should be enough. His love for me. But I hold back anyway. I thought I wonder why that is. Well there are several reasons. All of us have been hurt at one time or another. It's part of life. We will hurt others and others will hurt us. As much as I just want everyone to love one another that can't happen until we all begin to see and know the love that Christ has for us - His Bride. When we get hurt we hold back. Why? Because we are all scared we may get hurt again. I know I am so guilty of holding back from God and friends simply because I'm not sure if I can trust them enough to not stab me in the back.

But God will NEVER stab any of us in the back. He WON'T. He tells us that His grace is sufficient for us. "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9 In our weaknesses HE is lifted higher and because of that our hearts can be lifted higher up to Him to let Him take care of. Our lives can be given to Him completely because He truly is trustworthy and will take care of us and treasure us as the children of the Most High (which is who you and I are:).

So here I sit, rededicating my life to the Lord forever and allowing Him once again to sit in the Drivers seat and go with me in this journey of life. He can have everything I have to offer because it does no good for me to hold on to it. HE is my EVERYTHING. Love ya'! Happy Monday!


"Help Me Not Fall away..."

So I have been listening to a song by Barow Girl called 'Sing Me A Love Song' a lot lately. There is a part I love at the beginning in which they sing, "help me not runaway" and later on, "help me not fall away". Both of which I pray for in my heart. I thought I did before, but I was wrong.

The song really touches my heart. Sometimes I get so scared that I will get caught up in the world and lose my heart for Him and my relationship with Him. I get scared that that my eyes will stop looking upward and start looking at other things. Simply put, I get scared. But you know what I learned from the Lord? I have no need to worry. I just need to trust in Him. Have faith in Him. Love IN Him.

My whole life is in the Lord. I should be alert, but not worried because He is my King and He has my back. Just like He has your back. You don't need to worry about anything, though you do need to be alert. So many times us Christians fall asleep and when you fall asleep you are more susceptible to giving in to the ways of the world and satan. I refuse to fall asleep. How about you?

Jesus, You have my heart. You and ONLY YOU. You are my Heart and my Soul and I CANNOT live without You. Keep me awake, Lord. I don't want to fall asleep on You. Help me not fall away or runaway because You are always RIGHT HERE. Always. I love You!!!

Always remember He is right here with you. Jesus loves you so much! God bless!!


Living the Width of Life

"I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well." - Ackerman

That is a good quote. It says a lot. I have been thinking about it and it's really a serious thing of we have one life to live, how we choose to live it is really our choice. We can choose to live as a life surrendered over to Jesus and be blessed or live life selfishly for ourselves and not be as blessed.

I used to live life for myself. Wow, it was stupid of me, but I really didn't know the satisfaction I would get by not living for myself, but living for the One around me. Now I know and it gives me such a great feeling of actually DOING something rather than just doing things for myself that only benefit myself. Being apart of God's Kingdom is one of the most satisfying, amazing, incredible journey's I can EVER be apart of. And it definitely is. It is such a blessing in my life to be able to have a relationship with God and even though He doesn't need me or my help, He allows me to be used in furthering Him and His Kingdom. I love that!!

Living the "width" of life is living for Christ. Making life matter. Being a part of something much bigger than myself or yourself. What are you a part? I would love for you to be on team Jesus. :) Another brother or sister in this family would be awesome. And the great thing is our family will NEVER get too big or too crowded- there is always room for another person. And that person can be you. Allow Jesus in your heart today! He loves you!!! Stay blessed!


Religion or relationship?

From reading The Shack something I learned is God does not want to be put at the top of our list. Yes, I did just say that. God doesn't want us to put Him in as a "routine" thing. When we spend time with Him it shouldn't be because we "have" to but because we WANT to. He wants to be at the center of our lives. In everything that we do, He should be reflected through it all.

It's crazy that the things I didn't think were religion but relationship- are in fact religion. I thought that God wanted me to put Him at the top of my list which I guess in a way He does, but He doesn't want me to pencil Him in like He has to find a way to fit into my schedule. He desires for me to drop some things so I can be with Him and love on Him as He loves on me and that is what I desire to do as well. :)

Jesus has such a passion and love for you. You are a child of God. You are HIS CHILD. Nobody can EVER take that away from you and no one can ever take away His love for you! He just wants to be with you. He wants to love you and whisper truths into your ear. If you will allow Him, He will change your life. He has totally changed my life and I am in complete awe of all the changes He has helped me make and all the things He has helped overcome in life. He is just so incredible Awesome! I pray you know that and that you grow in His love for you this Sunday. Take some time to just relax today and let Him have your heart. Love y'all!! Stay blessed!


The Shack

I just got done reading one of the most amazing books I have ever read (besides the Bible:). There have been many books that I thought there is no book better than "this", or there is no book better than "this one", but truly this book tops them all. Or at least all the books I have read thus far. The book is called 'The Shack' by William Paul Young. This book is just... incredible! It took me a few days to read because I didn't want to rush through it and miss anything but the journey I have gone along during the period of time I read this book has been really amazing.
It's really funny all the things I have learned from some of the most "obvious" things , yet they weren't obvious to me. God has taught me more than I thought I could know about Him and in Him, through this book. I have laughed, thought deeply, cried, asked forgiveness and many more things through the reading of this book. So many things I thought about the Lord have been reversed to how I saw God to seeing Him as He is right NOW.
Okay, so now time to challenge you, my beautiful friend. I want to challenge you to get this book and as soon as you get it- read it. Yup, that is my challenge. To read this book. It may seem like a lame challenge or stupid even, but I can promise you that this book will change your thinking about the Lord and about life and about why bad things happen and why God lets them happen and so forth. I could tell you right now about all of it, but that would spoil the book for you. It beautiful story and really I hope you get this book. It truly is a MUST read. I am still processing everything I just read. Stay blessed and have a wonderful weekend!!


You cannot do a kindness too soon...

"You cannot do a kindness too soon because you never know how soon it will be too late." 
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I think this quote goes pretty well with my attitude now. God is taking me through a season of knowing that life will not always be mine and one day each and every one of us will die so why not live life to the fullest for His glory?!!

People are Hurting

So on Monday I went for a walk and a couple streets away I saw a bunch of cops and paramedics. Then I saw in the backyard of someone, a body. I was pretty freaked out about that so I went back to my house. I sat the rest of the day trying to get the image of a person lifeless out of my head and thinking about what might have happened. I watched the news but no one said anything about something going on. So I thought maybe I didn't see what I thought I saw. I was wrong.

I found out yesterday that the body I saw was a man, who committed suicide. I thought it was somewhat odd that one the same day I wrote a post on suicide someone would die of it. And then the statistic came racing back in my head, a person commits suicide every 20 seconds. I guess since I haven't known anyone to commit suicide it wasn't as real as it is.

I was thinking about the man and his family last night. I was wondering why he may have done it and questions began pouring in, was he not able to pay the bills? did someone leave him? was he just in so much pain that nothing seemed to help him? did he know Jesus? All these questions and yet they are all speculations. Nobody really knows why he may have killed himself, but I can't help but feel like maybe I could have shared Jesus with him and maybe he would have found the Hope and Strength to continue through this life. And then again maybe not. But it makes you feel like your not doing your job as a follower of Jesus if someone is that close to me and I wasn't able to help him.

But God has also shown me that in everything He has a plan. So maybe this will bring someone to Him or maybe someone will think about their life and see that they are not worthless and that their life means a lot to the people around them and most importantly to God.

I can at least say that through this my eyes have opened a bit to the fact that there ARE hurting people around me and they need to know the Truth. And that life is too short to spend it on the safe side. Please be in prayer for the family and friends of this man. Thank you! Be blessed.


No Need to Fear

I am the Lord your God... The Lord of hosts is His name... and I have put My words in your mouth and hidden you safely in My hand." -Isaiah 51:15-16

That verse is bringing me comfort right now. I have to admit that last night was one of the roughest sleeps I have ever had. Every time I turned over I was just gripped by fear. Right now I can't really explain why I am afraid, but it's a fairly good reason to be a little frightened. But anyways, I got up to talk with my mom and she told me that I just had to have faith.

That really got me thinking (at 4:00am) that if my relationship with God is as strong as I think it is then I won't be afraid or fear anything because I have Him and no matter what happens He is there and He loves me and He has got my back. Nothing else matters. He is HERE, right NOW with ME! By my side 24/7 even when I can't "feel" Him or see Him, He is here. He is there with you too. That is the Awesomeness of our God. That He can be with ALL OF US - AT THE SAME TIME! And He can comfort us and hold us and love us individually at the same time.

There really is no need for me to be afraid of whatever. Jesus is King and will take care of you and me. Everything that tries to consume us and pull us away from the Savior cannot have any power unless we let it. Satan cannot do anything to you unless you let him. The Bible is very clear that satan can tempt you but he cannot make you do what he is tempting you to do. So whatever problems we may have we don't have to allow the "usual" outcomes to happen if we choose to stand on the Word and believe in Jesus Christ with everything inside of us that He is who He is and He can do what He says He can do. So it's time to have faith and fear nothing.

Jesus, You are the Comforter, and my Healer, and my Savior and I trust in You! And that is my attitude for the day. I am not going to worry or fear or get annoyed (which all is easily said than done, but I'm gonna try my hardest) because He is holding me safely in His hand and nothing can really get to me. I have no need to fear a thing. Neither do you. We got Jesus and that is what keeps us alive and moving! He has your back, and He has mine, so let's just trust Him and love Him and do His will for our lives and we will have one successful life. :) Success isn't money or fame. Real success is being who you are called to be regardless a situation or difficulty. Living out the purpose God has for you. He loves you!! We are secure in His hands!


Spending Myself

"And I will very gladly spend and be spent for your souls; though the more abundantly I love you, the less I am loved." 2 Corinthians 12:15

I read this verse this morning. I really haven't noticed it before. Maybe that's because I was rushing through it the last time I read it or something. But this morning God showed it to me. And He also spoke a few things to my heart through it. I think what Paul is saying in this verse is something that I should do as well. No, it is something I should BE as well.

Paul had a heart that gave as much as it possibly could everyday. His life reflected that. He tells us in the verse above that he GLADLY will spend and be spent for other people's souls. I have to ask myself the question, will I gladly spend and be spent for other people's souls? It's really not even a thing of spending myself for other people's souls because that can be done, the emphasis comes on whether I will be glad doing it. If I am not happy doing it then I probably won't be doing the best I can I will probably just do what I "have" to to get by. And I don't want to do that.

I want to be happy doing God's will and pouring myself into people's lives to show them the love of Christ. That's my purpose. That's how I choose to live. There is so much more to life out there than just living for myself. I know what the "more" part is. Its Jesus and His dying on the Cross so we could all live and be in a relationship with Him.

I truly will be glad and spend and be spent for other's souls. Have a blessed day!! Jesus loves YOU!


I am really saddened right now. Kind of disturbed. It's weird how I can be so oblivious to the things going around in the world. I think I may have seen the things around me, but maybe I turned the other way so I didn't have to see it.

The main thing that I am really sad about right now is suicide. It's crazy to think that people would think that the only way out of a situation is to get a gun and kill themselves. My heart is truly broken for them. I'm not sure I like this feeling, I mean I prayed that God would break my heart for what breaks His, so I guess I'm getting what I prayed for, but it's such a... bad feeling.

Maybe I am feeling a slight bit of pain that people who think about suicide feel. Maybe I am feeling the tiny bit of dead inside that they are feeling. Maybe I am feeling their hurt and the feeling of being lost. I think all of us may have felt this way at one point- the pain, being shattered at the core.

But you know what gives us all hope (and I pray if you are feeling hopeless you really read this)? The fact that Jesus felt the pain that we do. He felt the pain MORE than we can ever feel and He took that pain for hours until He was finally crucified on a Cross. And guess what? Pain and death couldn't even HOLD HIM! They have no power over us anymore. Jesus did that all for us and He is alive now waiting for you to come to Him. He loves you more than you can ever know. EVER KNOW! And the pain you might feel now, can be gone through Jesus Christ and His love. He renews hearts and lives. HE HEALS HEARTS AND LIVES. He healed mine. He can heal yours. There is nothing that can separate you from His love. Let Him have your heart today. Let Him heal you and love on you for the rest of your life. God bless you. :)


Beautiful Ending

So I few posts ago I told you about BarlowGirl's new cd 'Love & War'. Well there is a song called 'Beautiful Ending' on that cd. I use the song for worship sometimes because it is such a wonderful song and has so much heart and passion in it. You don't have to take my word for it, you can find the song and listen to it for yourself. I want to share the lyrics with you. They are extremely powerful. Have a blessed weekend!!

Beautiful Ending by BarlowGirl
Oh, tragedy
Has taken so many
Love lost cause they all
Forgot who You were
And it scares me to think
That I would choose
My life over You
My selfish heart
Divides me from You
It tears us apart

So tell me
What is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Oh, why do I
Let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars
And hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart
Makes me forget
It's not me but You
Who makes the heart beatI'm lost without You
And dying from me?

Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms


Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful



I want to love people. Things are finally starting to click a little bit better than before. I know the love Jesus has for each one of us and how special we all are in His eyes but there are some people who don't know that love. Because of that, they go looking for it everywhere. I want to be the one person that they can come to and see the love Jesus in me. I want to pour time into people and be a light in a dark place to them.

I don't like it when people say they are ugly or stupid or worthless because it's like, hey, Jesus loves you more than you can ever know and you are worth so much to Him and you are everything He wants you to be and He really loves you!!! The only problem is there are so many people who don't believe that (some even Christians). Why? I think it's because the world has so many standards and they are completely opposite to God's standards however sometimes it's hard to tune the world out and that is why it is so important to spend time with Jesus, because when we don't all we can hear is the world's voice. Not the Voice of Truth.

I want you to know that the Lord loves you so very much. I can't even put into words how much He loves you. There is nothing that can describe His love for you except the Cross. That is His love completely. Willing to take the Cross even if it were only for You, He would have. Maybe you don't believe that but I pray that God will help you to. You are so special and important and don't be afraid to believe that. Love you guys a lot!! Stay blessed! :)

I Won't Say Sorry

There are many things that I may have to apologize for but I will not say sorry for my faith in Jesus Christ. I'm so tired of the world telling me that I should say sorry for "offending" someone because I don't believe in the same thing they do. The Bible is extremely clear on the subject that there is only ONE GOD, ONE FAITH, and ONE JESUS. I can't deny that and neither can anybody else. God is a GREAT God and there is only One.

I won't say sorry for being bold and courageous for Jesus Christ. I won't apologize for being who I am. Jesus has made me who I am right now. He is a part of me. He lives in me. If I try to separate myself from Him... well, it can't be done. He is my life. Before I became a Christian I probably would have had a different answer to who my life is, but being a follow of Jesus I am saying right now that my life is Him. My life is all about Him and when I try to make my life about myself and things that would please me, it just won't work.

The world tells all of us as followers of the King to "tone it down" or "not be so 'loud'" but if we stay silent and 'tone it down' then the people who so boldly speak about having sex before marriage and doing what "feels" good will eventually win in the world and then our purpose of saving souls and sharing who Jesus is with people will be lost. I say, if everyone in the world can say whatever they want and do whatever they want then why is it that I have to be quiet? Because it's making people feel uncomfortable? I won't say sorry for being a follower of Jesus and following His will for my life.

This was something I was thinking about late last night and just thought I'd share what God has put on my heart. Love you all! Stay blessed and have a great weekend!


Asleep in His Arms

Well, October is now upon us. I am extremely excited! I love the beginning of a new month because it's like a fresh start, a new season, a time to be who God has called me to be. It's amazing!!

So, I have had such a longing these past few days to just sit with the Lord and lay in His lap and just let all my thoughts and emotions out. I kinda feel like I've held in all my emotions and kept them from Him. I usually sit and listen to the Lord and talk with Him, but I just really haven't wanted to the past month. I feel like all these problems keep piling up and no matter how much I do this or that nothing happens. I guess that's better than having something happen that ends up being more than I can handle.

But you know what? God showed me something that has changed my mind a little bit. He has shown me and is showing me that it's time to lay down the shell that I have been placing around my heart. That it is time to not be afraid to show my emotions and heart to Him and to other people as well. It's hard, really hard, for me to show my emotions. I have always been somewhat emotional, but I don't show that to people. I feel sometimes, like if I show my emotions to other people then they will take advantage of that.

God has been speaking to me and He is speaking to you too and this is what He is saying-

"My Beautiful Child,
I love you. I love you as you are and nothing can ever change that. I want you to open your heart to Me. I know you have been hurt before, but I will NEVER hurt you. It might be hard for you to believe but if you will give Me a chance to love you and take care of you then you might find out that I am serious. Remember this - I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY MUCH!"

Today, at some point (whenever I get some spare time) I am going to crawl up into my Daddy's lap and just let everything out. I need time to cry, to scream, to pray, to worship, to get everything off of my chest. I am going to fall asleep in His arms and let Him reveal Himself to me. And maybe you need to sit in the Fathers arms too. Sometimes it's the best to just let it ALL OUT. Because when we lay everything at the feet of Jesus we can be blessed so much more than you or me could ever think. Stay blessed!!! And happy October 1st!!


Attitude Check List

I've been sitting here trying to gather all my thoughts together for a post. This is a verse I read the other day,

"...as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, yet possessing all things." 2 Corinthians 6:10

I really like that. I think of it as an attitude check list. Because sometimes we will be sorrowful, and certainly there are times to show that sorrow, but there are also times to rejoice and be thankful. Also, I think that there are so many people out there who are having problems with money and are "poor" but if we can live to make others rich (helping out, loving people who seem to be "unlovable", making an effort to go the extra mile...) we can be so blessed. And lastly the part about "having nothing, yet possessing everything" I love because I'm trying to learn to live as though I have nothing because really at the end of the day what do I have besides Jesus? Nothing. But having Jesus, I really do have all things because everything I need is in Him.

Sometimes I think I have it all together and that's the times that God humbles me and shows me that I DON'T have it all together and that if I did what need of a Savior would I have? It's amazing what God can show you in just a few minutes or hours. I encourage you to get with Him and allow Him to speak to your heart and mind.

This was just something I wanted to share with you. Love you all!