10.30.2009

Enjoying God's Beauty

Yes, that is what I am doing. Enjoying God's beauty!!! :) The Lord has made so many beautiful things (whether it be people, nature, animals, etc.) and I don't take enough time to just thank Him for all the beauty He has placed around me, much less spend some time enjoying.

So as I have said many times before, fall is my favorite season. I love fall and everything that comes with it. Especially the leaves! I love to look at the beautiful colors that the leaves change into. And so today I went outside and gathered some of the most beautiful leaves I could find and decided to press them (put them between wax paper then iron them *with a towel on top so it doesn't melt the wax paper*). I try to do it every year because it sort of celebrates God's beauty in my opinion.

I just wanted to encourage you that wherever you are, just take a little time this weekend to enjoy the beauty God has blessed each of us with, all around us. Have an amazingly blessed weekend!!!

10.28.2009

True Love

"Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat." - Mother Teresa

I find that quote amazing to me. Not because I've never heard it, but because it is so true. Things happen in life that cause other people to either not love or not be loved. I think it is so sad. Truly those people don't know the love of Jesus for them. I find it my mission to try and tell as many people as I can that Jesus really and truly loves them just as they are. I think that is difficult for people to believe because of the Church and how a lot of times we as Christians don't explain very well that while we are sinners and have a lot of faults, God really does accept every single one of us just as we are. Maybe it is because even some Christians don't really know that.

What I want you (yup, YOU) to understand is that Jesus loves you SO much! It does not matter where you have come from or what you have done, there is a God above who loves you just like you are and will gently help you weed out the things in your life that draw you away from Him and slowly you will begin to get nearer to Him. I wish I could really and truly tell you just how much He loves you, but that would be impossible since none of us really know how much He loves us all. I will never comprehend how much He loves me. Why? Because my little mind cannot grip such a great God and why He would love a lowly person like me. It just doesn't make sense, but I have learned that a lot of things in life don't make sense and some things are better left unknown. I don't need to know the reasons for why EVERYTHING happens, just certain things. I am learning to trust God with all that I have. It is a process.

I just want you to know right now that Jesus loves you so much!!!!!!!!!!! You are the apple of His eye for real and don't listen to a soul that tries to tell you that He doesn't because that is just another person who doesn't know how much God loves them. I pray tonight that you get to know the Lord a little better and grasp just a little bit more of His love for you! Love y'all!!

10.26.2009

Restraining Myself

"I have restrained my feet from every evil way, that I may keep Your Word." Psalm 119:101

I read Psalm 119 this morning, which is a really beautiful chapter of Scripture and if you haven't read it, take some time today to read it in one sitting and allow God to open your heart to His Word. And the verse above is one (of many) that really stuck out to me. I could feel the Lord speaking to my heart through it. I was thinking and a question that popped into my head was, when have I restrained myself in order to keep the Lord's Word and do His will? I mean, really thinking about that I'm not sure I ever have.

However that is changing thanks to the Awesome God I serve!! I desire to restrain myself in order that I keep and follow Him and His Word. That is a calling on each and every one of our lives. And really it shows when you physically restrain, hold yourself back, in order to follow God with your whole heart and life. That's what I want - to follow God with my whole heart and life and hold myself back and give things up in order to keep His Word. That is a true desire of my heart. It is what I want to do.

These are just some thoughts I had this morning. Have a blessed, happy Monday!!! Jesus loves you so much!!!!

10.25.2009

Love, Love, Love

Something that the Lord has been revealing to me is love. Ya' know, love is what we are called to do. It's not just an action, it's a way to be, but sometimes there are people who are just so HARD to love that I don't want to. I mean, haven't you had someone say or do something to you that was just totally uncalled for? And isn't it hard to love them? Well, certainly for me there are "those" people in my life. I wanted to not love them, to just let them go because really are they gonna notice anything different if I don't love them? I mean, if they really wanted my love they wouldn't be talking junk about me, right? Regardless of whether they do or don't want my love, they definitely want SOME BODY'S love and that Somebody is Jesus.

The people around you and me are searching. Maybe even you, yourself are searching. What you're searching for is love. Deep within each of us is our love tank and everybody NEEDS to fill their love tank. The love tank inside of you ultimately needs to be filled with Jesus and His love, but also there is room for love from certain people like friends and family. However some of us fill our love tanks with the wrong people. Instead of finding those godly friends, we find the ones who are into drinking and partying and let them inside of our hearts. Then, they take advantage of that and we get our hearts hurt bad which then leads to being one of "those" people who is hard to love. Why? Because hurting people hurt people. When I'm hurt I hurt others and I'm guessing you probably do the same. But we have got to stop the cycle because if we don't what God wants for us all can't be accomplished.

I want to love others. I cannot let something get in the way of that. My goal in life is to love God and love others. That to me, if fulfilling God's will and plan. Sure, there are things in between that, but when someone sees or hears about me I want them to say that I love God with all of my being and that I love people regardless. So here I am writing this and praying silently that the Lord will help me to achieve this. He knows me. He knows my heart. And He knows you. And I hope you know Him and His love for you, because if you don't, you have no idea what you are missing. I end this with a beautiful passage from 1 Corinthians 13:4-8,

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

10.23.2009

Football Mentality

As we all know, football is very big in the U.S.A. For good reason too, it's a great game and keeps most of us entertained. Something that I noticed is anytime someone interviews a member of a team after they lose usually they say something like this, "Well, we made some mistakes out there, but we just have to pick things up and move forward. We have to play a little better next week." And I think that is the mentality we need in life. We would all be so much more blessed if we said, "hey, I failed today. I made some mistakes I didn't want to make, but now I am going to move forward, forget about everything, make the needed changes and continue down the path the Lord has planned out for me."

God's grace is great enough and big enough for us to be able to do that. But sometimes we get so wrapped up in ourselves and our mistakes and listen the lies of the enemy that we forget about the greatness of God and His love for us all. Maybe not you, but I do. I allow some of the most stupid lies to get inside my head and instead of just moving forward and picking it up I end up going backwards.

So I want to encourage you and myself to allow God's grace to cover EVERYTHING. And believe me, God's grace really can cover everything. His love can cover everything. What Jesus did on the Cross for you and me says it all!! Pick yourself up, let God hold you in His arms, and move forward. He has a plan for you and all you have to do is wait for Him to reveal it piece by piece to you. I love you all and have a blessed weekend!!!! :))

10.22.2009

Desires, Goals, Purpose

This verse pretty much sums up my heart and life this week, "I delight to Your will, O my God, and Your law is within my heart." - Psalm 40:8 I really do delight to do God's will for my life. It's my desire to do His will, but sometimes it's difficult doing it when all these lies from satan come into my head and just start blabbing at me. Has that ever happened to you? Doesn't it make you annoyed? Maybe not, but for me it really annoys me. But the thing that Jesus has been teaching me (or trying to anyway) is that HE is the TRUTH. What anybody else says really and truly does not matter because He needs to be overall Voice in my life. I WANT His voice to be the end all be all of my life. He really means the world to me and I want my actions to show that. I want people to be able to look at me and say, "hey, she really does want to do God's will and even though she fails sometimes and messes up big time (because I am not perfect) she still knows that God's grace covers that all and continues forth in the race toward the goal of life (Eternity with Jesus)."

I want God's Word to be within my heart - IN my heart. I have been learning about junk food. I'm not talking about the junk food you eat physically, but the junk food you eat spiritually. Spiritually I allow some things via the Internet, TV, music, etc that come into my mind and mess me up. God has been teaching me that my flesh is weak (which is why we have a NEED for Him and spending time with Him) but I have to be strong in Him and push away from the TV shows or whatever that make my mind a battlefield between me and it. The things that don't honor Him and benefit my relationship with Him.

Actually Psalm 40:8 is the verse of the week, but I haven't really been following it. God brought some questions for me to ask myself before I do anything,
Will this benefit Jesus and I and our relationship?
Will this help me achieve my purpose and goals in life?
Will this be an example or chance to share the Lord with somebody?

The answers to those questions, if it the best thing to do, is yes. If what I am wanting to do or about to do has even one no to one of those questions then I am not doing it. My eyes can become so cloudy sometimes and I lose sight of what the REAL and TRUE purpose of my being here on earth is, and that is to love God and love others. To love is to fulfill all of God's laws because you can't murder, steal, hate, etc if you have love. Real love is sharing with the people true Life (Jesus). Why? Because no one should suffer in Hell simply because there was a person who was too shy to share Jesus with them. I don't want to be that reason that someone didn't know the Lord. I am follower of Jesus. I FOLLOW Jesus. Jesus told the world of the Father, I follow in telling the world about Him, too.

This is what God has been teaching me and He laid it on my heart to share it with you. Many blessings to you all!! love ya'!!

10.20.2009

Breaking Heart for His Child

"Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world." Philippians 2:14-15

I read that verse this morning when I was spending time with the Lord. It seemed to really jump out at me and it also fits in with something I was thinking about yesterday and this morning.

As some of you may have heard, there was a UConn player named Jasper Howard who stabbed to death Sunday. He had been at a dance and gotten into an argument. Sources say that an arrest might be made today. But in the midst of it all I was just thinking about how it seems no one can make a mistake anymore. You get into a little fight with someone and then someone gets ticked off and takes it further than it should have ever gone. It makes me sad and angry and frustrated. That 20 year old college student was the first in his family to go to college. He grew up in a horrific neighborhood in south Florida and moved to a place where he thought it would be safer. He started building a name for himself and just this past Saturday had an incredible game. All the talent and things he had going for him were just snatched away in a split second. It's not fair. That's life - it is never fair.

It makes me think that right now we need leaders to rise up now more than EVER before. WE (us -you and me) need to BE the lights of the world. Because some of our generation is crooked and perverse, and then you have some that aren't (you and me and Jasper). My heart is broken for this guy and all the others out there who are killed or hurting in our world. Tears are welling up in my eyes right now just thinking about these beautiful children of God. They and you don't deserve the awful things that life has dealt you. The mean things that people say or do, it just isn't fair to you.

You are prince or princess of the Most High, don't forget that! You have a purpose specifically made for you by God. He doesn't need you, but He does WANT you. You play a special part in the body of Christ and when you don't put in the effort to play the role God has for you it doesn't turn out right for both you and our world. You make a difference and an impact.

Another thing that Jasper Howard has reminded me is that life really is short. No one is guaranteed another day or hour or even a minute. Which is why it is so vital to get right in our relationships with the Lord and live out His plan for us. I had forgotten that. So I thank God and Jasper for reminding me. Through this tragic crime God will be glorified. Please join me in prayer for his family, friends, and teammates. All of which are suffering right now and could use some support. And if you don't know Jesus please let me know. If you are ready to accept Him and get your life together before it is too late you can pray the prayer on the side of my blog (in pink). Then please, please, please leave me a comment so I can pray for you during the most exciting journey of your life! :) I love you all so much and pray you have a blessed day!!

10.19.2009

Who's Leading Who?

Well I was gonna post this yesterday, but I wasn't feeling it, so I didn't. So here I am posting what I experienced yesterday during worship. :)

I was worshipping and for some reason I was just having some trouble staying focused on the Lord. I was going through all the things I needed to do and some of the things I wanted to do and finally Jesus was speaking to me and said, "Let ME lead you." I knew at that moment what He was speaking about and why. I spend way too much time trying to make sure everything is just so and works out just like I want it and regardless of how many times He tells me to let Him be the Driver I still don't always listen and end up getting everything messed up.

I can sometimes be a perfectionist. Most of the time I'm not, but I do have my moments. And God is just speaking to me saying, "Forget everything you once held dear to your heart and let Me place the things I have for you in it. Let Me lead you in the direction I want you to go in. Let Me have your heart again." It's like I thought I had given the Lord my whole heart and then I got this amazing wake up call that was like, "you might think you have given Me every piece of you, but you are still holding back. You don't have to because I love you." That should be enough. His love for me. But I hold back anyway. I thought I wonder why that is. Well there are several reasons. All of us have been hurt at one time or another. It's part of life. We will hurt others and others will hurt us. As much as I just want everyone to love one another that can't happen until we all begin to see and know the love that Christ has for us - His Bride. When we get hurt we hold back. Why? Because we are all scared we may get hurt again. I know I am so guilty of holding back from God and friends simply because I'm not sure if I can trust them enough to not stab me in the back.

But God will NEVER stab any of us in the back. He WON'T. He tells us that His grace is sufficient for us. "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Corinthians 12:9 In our weaknesses HE is lifted higher and because of that our hearts can be lifted higher up to Him to let Him take care of. Our lives can be given to Him completely because He truly is trustworthy and will take care of us and treasure us as the children of the Most High (which is who you and I are:).

So here I sit, rededicating my life to the Lord forever and allowing Him once again to sit in the Drivers seat and go with me in this journey of life. He can have everything I have to offer because it does no good for me to hold on to it. HE is my EVERYTHING. Love ya'! Happy Monday!

10.17.2009

"Help Me Not Fall away..."

So I have been listening to a song by Barow Girl called 'Sing Me A Love Song' a lot lately. There is a part I love at the beginning in which they sing, "help me not runaway" and later on, "help me not fall away". Both of which I pray for in my heart. I thought I did before, but I was wrong.

The song really touches my heart. Sometimes I get so scared that I will get caught up in the world and lose my heart for Him and my relationship with Him. I get scared that that my eyes will stop looking upward and start looking at other things. Simply put, I get scared. But you know what I learned from the Lord? I have no need to worry. I just need to trust in Him. Have faith in Him. Love IN Him.

My whole life is in the Lord. I should be alert, but not worried because He is my King and He has my back. Just like He has your back. You don't need to worry about anything, though you do need to be alert. So many times us Christians fall asleep and when you fall asleep you are more susceptible to giving in to the ways of the world and satan. I refuse to fall asleep. How about you?

Jesus, You have my heart. You and ONLY YOU. You are my Heart and my Soul and I CANNOT live without You. Keep me awake, Lord. I don't want to fall asleep on You. Help me not fall away or runaway because You are always RIGHT HERE. Always. I love You!!!

Always remember He is right here with you. Jesus loves you so much! God bless!!

10.13.2009

Living the Width of Life

"I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well." - Ackerman

That is a good quote. It says a lot. I have been thinking about it and it's really a serious thing of we have one life to live, how we choose to live it is really our choice. We can choose to live as a life surrendered over to Jesus and be blessed or live life selfishly for ourselves and not be as blessed.

I used to live life for myself. Wow, it was stupid of me, but I really didn't know the satisfaction I would get by not living for myself, but living for the One around me. Now I know and it gives me such a great feeling of actually DOING something rather than just doing things for myself that only benefit myself. Being apart of God's Kingdom is one of the most satisfying, amazing, incredible journey's I can EVER be apart of. And it definitely is. It is such a blessing in my life to be able to have a relationship with God and even though He doesn't need me or my help, He allows me to be used in furthering Him and His Kingdom. I love that!!

Living the "width" of life is living for Christ. Making life matter. Being a part of something much bigger than myself or yourself. What are you a part? I would love for you to be on team Jesus. :) Another brother or sister in this family would be awesome. And the great thing is our family will NEVER get too big or too crowded- there is always room for another person. And that person can be you. Allow Jesus in your heart today! He loves you!!! Stay blessed!

10.11.2009

Religion or relationship?

From reading The Shack something I learned is God does not want to be put at the top of our list. Yes, I did just say that. God doesn't want us to put Him in as a "routine" thing. When we spend time with Him it shouldn't be because we "have" to but because we WANT to. He wants to be at the center of our lives. In everything that we do, He should be reflected through it all.

It's crazy that the things I didn't think were religion but relationship- are in fact religion. I thought that God wanted me to put Him at the top of my list which I guess in a way He does, but He doesn't want me to pencil Him in like He has to find a way to fit into my schedule. He desires for me to drop some things so I can be with Him and love on Him as He loves on me and that is what I desire to do as well. :)

Jesus has such a passion and love for you. You are a child of God. You are HIS CHILD. Nobody can EVER take that away from you and no one can ever take away His love for you! He just wants to be with you. He wants to love you and whisper truths into your ear. If you will allow Him, He will change your life. He has totally changed my life and I am in complete awe of all the changes He has helped me make and all the things He has helped overcome in life. He is just so incredible Awesome! I pray you know that and that you grow in His love for you this Sunday. Take some time to just relax today and let Him have your heart. Love y'all!! Stay blessed!

10.10.2009

The Shack


I just got done reading one of the most amazing books I have ever read (besides the Bible:). There have been many books that I thought there is no book better than "this", or there is no book better than "this one", but truly this book tops them all. Or at least all the books I have read thus far. The book is called 'The Shack' by William Paul Young. This book is just... incredible! It took me a few days to read because I didn't want to rush through it and miss anything but the journey I have gone along during the period of time I read this book has been really amazing.
It's really funny all the things I have learned from some of the most "obvious" things , yet they weren't obvious to me. God has taught me more than I thought I could know about Him and in Him, through this book. I have laughed, thought deeply, cried, asked forgiveness and many more things through the reading of this book. So many things I thought about the Lord have been reversed to how I saw God to seeing Him as He is right NOW.
Okay, so now time to challenge you, my beautiful friend. I want to challenge you to get this book and as soon as you get it- read it. Yup, that is my challenge. To read this book. It may seem like a lame challenge or stupid even, but I can promise you that this book will change your thinking about the Lord and about life and about why bad things happen and why God lets them happen and so forth. I could tell you right now about all of it, but that would spoil the book for you. It beautiful story and really I hope you get this book. It truly is a MUST read. I am still processing everything I just read. Stay blessed and have a wonderful weekend!!

10.08.2009

You cannot do a kindness too soon...

"You cannot do a kindness too soon because you never know how soon it will be too late." 
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I think this quote goes pretty well with my attitude now. God is taking me through a season of knowing that life will not always be mine and one day each and every one of us will die so why not live life to the fullest for His glory?!!

People are Hurting

So on Monday I went for a walk and a couple streets away I saw a bunch of cops and paramedics. Then I saw in the backyard of someone, a body. I was pretty freaked out about that so I went back to my house. I sat the rest of the day trying to get the image of a person lifeless out of my head and thinking about what might have happened. I watched the news but no one said anything about something going on. So I thought maybe I didn't see what I thought I saw. I was wrong.

I found out yesterday that the body I saw was a man, who committed suicide. I thought it was somewhat odd that one the same day I wrote a post on suicide someone would die of it. And then the statistic came racing back in my head, a person commits suicide every 20 seconds. I guess since I haven't known anyone to commit suicide it wasn't as real as it is.

I was thinking about the man and his family last night. I was wondering why he may have done it and questions began pouring in, was he not able to pay the bills? did someone leave him? was he just in so much pain that nothing seemed to help him? did he know Jesus? All these questions and yet they are all speculations. Nobody really knows why he may have killed himself, but I can't help but feel like maybe I could have shared Jesus with him and maybe he would have found the Hope and Strength to continue through this life. And then again maybe not. But it makes you feel like your not doing your job as a follower of Jesus if someone is that close to me and I wasn't able to help him.

But God has also shown me that in everything He has a plan. So maybe this will bring someone to Him or maybe someone will think about their life and see that they are not worthless and that their life means a lot to the people around them and most importantly to God.

I can at least say that through this my eyes have opened a bit to the fact that there ARE hurting people around me and they need to know the Truth. And that life is too short to spend it on the safe side. Please be in prayer for the family and friends of this man. Thank you! Be blessed.

10.06.2009

No Need to Fear

I am the Lord your God... The Lord of hosts is His name... and I have put My words in your mouth and hidden you safely in My hand." -Isaiah 51:15-16

That verse is bringing me comfort right now. I have to admit that last night was one of the roughest sleeps I have ever had. Every time I turned over I was just gripped by fear. Right now I can't really explain why I am afraid, but it's a fairly good reason to be a little frightened. But anyways, I got up to talk with my mom and she told me that I just had to have faith.

That really got me thinking (at 4:00am) that if my relationship with God is as strong as I think it is then I won't be afraid or fear anything because I have Him and no matter what happens He is there and He loves me and He has got my back. Nothing else matters. He is HERE, right NOW with ME! By my side 24/7 even when I can't "feel" Him or see Him, He is here. He is there with you too. That is the Awesomeness of our God. That He can be with ALL OF US - AT THE SAME TIME! And He can comfort us and hold us and love us individually at the same time.

There really is no need for me to be afraid of whatever. Jesus is King and will take care of you and me. Everything that tries to consume us and pull us away from the Savior cannot have any power unless we let it. Satan cannot do anything to you unless you let him. The Bible is very clear that satan can tempt you but he cannot make you do what he is tempting you to do. So whatever problems we may have we don't have to allow the "usual" outcomes to happen if we choose to stand on the Word and believe in Jesus Christ with everything inside of us that He is who He is and He can do what He says He can do. So it's time to have faith and fear nothing.

Jesus, You are the Comforter, and my Healer, and my Savior and I trust in You! And that is my attitude for the day. I am not going to worry or fear or get annoyed (which all is easily said than done, but I'm gonna try my hardest) because He is holding me safely in His hand and nothing can really get to me. I have no need to fear a thing. Neither do you. We got Jesus and that is what keeps us alive and moving! He has your back, and He has mine, so let's just trust Him and love Him and do His will for our lives and we will have one successful life. :) Success isn't money or fame. Real success is being who you are called to be regardless a situation or difficulty. Living out the purpose God has for you. He loves you!! We are secure in His hands!

10.05.2009

Spending Myself

"And I will very gladly spend and be spent for your souls; though the more abundantly I love you, the less I am loved." 2 Corinthians 12:15

I read this verse this morning. I really haven't noticed it before. Maybe that's because I was rushing through it the last time I read it or something. But this morning God showed it to me. And He also spoke a few things to my heart through it. I think what Paul is saying in this verse is something that I should do as well. No, it is something I should BE as well.

Paul had a heart that gave as much as it possibly could everyday. His life reflected that. He tells us in the verse above that he GLADLY will spend and be spent for other people's souls. I have to ask myself the question, will I gladly spend and be spent for other people's souls? It's really not even a thing of spending myself for other people's souls because that can be done, the emphasis comes on whether I will be glad doing it. If I am not happy doing it then I probably won't be doing the best I can I will probably just do what I "have" to to get by. And I don't want to do that.

I want to be happy doing God's will and pouring myself into people's lives to show them the love of Christ. That's my purpose. That's how I choose to live. There is so much more to life out there than just living for myself. I know what the "more" part is. Its Jesus and His dying on the Cross so we could all live and be in a relationship with Him.

I truly will be glad and spend and be spent for other's souls. Have a blessed day!! Jesus loves YOU!

Disturbed

I am really saddened right now. Kind of disturbed. It's weird how I can be so oblivious to the things going around in the world. I think I may have seen the things around me, but maybe I turned the other way so I didn't have to see it.

The main thing that I am really sad about right now is suicide. It's crazy to think that people would think that the only way out of a situation is to get a gun and kill themselves. My heart is truly broken for them. I'm not sure I like this feeling, I mean I prayed that God would break my heart for what breaks His, so I guess I'm getting what I prayed for, but it's such a... bad feeling.

Maybe I am feeling a slight bit of pain that people who think about suicide feel. Maybe I am feeling the tiny bit of dead inside that they are feeling. Maybe I am feeling their hurt and the feeling of being lost. I think all of us may have felt this way at one point- the pain, being shattered at the core.

But you know what gives us all hope (and I pray if you are feeling hopeless you really read this)? The fact that Jesus felt the pain that we do. He felt the pain MORE than we can ever feel and He took that pain for hours until He was finally crucified on a Cross. And guess what? Pain and death couldn't even HOLD HIM! They have no power over us anymore. Jesus did that all for us and He is alive now waiting for you to come to Him. He loves you more than you can ever know. EVER KNOW! And the pain you might feel now, can be gone through Jesus Christ and His love. He renews hearts and lives. HE HEALS HEARTS AND LIVES. He healed mine. He can heal yours. There is nothing that can separate you from His love. Let Him have your heart today. Let Him heal you and love on you for the rest of your life. God bless you. :)

10.03.2009

Beautiful Ending

So I few posts ago I told you about BarlowGirl's new cd 'Love & War'. Well there is a song called 'Beautiful Ending' on that cd. I use the song for worship sometimes because it is such a wonderful song and has so much heart and passion in it. You don't have to take my word for it, you can find the song and listen to it for yourself. I want to share the lyrics with you. They are extremely powerful. Have a blessed weekend!!

Beautiful Ending by BarlowGirl
Oh, tragedy
Has taken so many
Love lost cause they all
Forgot who You were
And it scares me to think
That I would choose
My life over You
My selfish heart
Divides me from You
It tears us apart

chorus:
So tell me
What is our ending?
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful?

Oh, why do I
Let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars
And hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart
Makes me forget
It's not me but You
Who makes the heart beatI'm lost without You
And dying from me?

chours:
Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms
At the end of it all
I wanna be in Your arms

chorus

Will my life
Find me by Your side?
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful

10.02.2009

HE LOVES YOU!

I want to love people. Things are finally starting to click a little bit better than before. I know the love Jesus has for each one of us and how special we all are in His eyes but there are some people who don't know that love. Because of that, they go looking for it everywhere. I want to be the one person that they can come to and see the love Jesus in me. I want to pour time into people and be a light in a dark place to them.

I don't like it when people say they are ugly or stupid or worthless because it's like, hey, Jesus loves you more than you can ever know and you are worth so much to Him and you are everything He wants you to be and He really loves you!!! The only problem is there are so many people who don't believe that (some even Christians). Why? I think it's because the world has so many standards and they are completely opposite to God's standards however sometimes it's hard to tune the world out and that is why it is so important to spend time with Jesus, because when we don't all we can hear is the world's voice. Not the Voice of Truth.

I want you to know that the Lord loves you so very much. I can't even put into words how much He loves you. There is nothing that can describe His love for you except the Cross. That is His love completely. Willing to take the Cross even if it were only for You, He would have. Maybe you don't believe that but I pray that God will help you to. You are so special and important and don't be afraid to believe that. Love you guys a lot!! Stay blessed! :)

I Won't Say Sorry

There are many things that I may have to apologize for but I will not say sorry for my faith in Jesus Christ. I'm so tired of the world telling me that I should say sorry for "offending" someone because I don't believe in the same thing they do. The Bible is extremely clear on the subject that there is only ONE GOD, ONE FAITH, and ONE JESUS. I can't deny that and neither can anybody else. God is a GREAT God and there is only One.

I won't say sorry for being bold and courageous for Jesus Christ. I won't apologize for being who I am. Jesus has made me who I am right now. He is a part of me. He lives in me. If I try to separate myself from Him... well, it can't be done. He is my life. Before I became a Christian I probably would have had a different answer to who my life is, but being a follow of Jesus I am saying right now that my life is Him. My life is all about Him and when I try to make my life about myself and things that would please me, it just won't work.

The world tells all of us as followers of the King to "tone it down" or "not be so 'loud'" but if we stay silent and 'tone it down' then the people who so boldly speak about having sex before marriage and doing what "feels" good will eventually win in the world and then our purpose of saving souls and sharing who Jesus is with people will be lost. I say, if everyone in the world can say whatever they want and do whatever they want then why is it that I have to be quiet? Because it's making people feel uncomfortable? I won't say sorry for being a follower of Jesus and following His will for my life.

This was something I was thinking about late last night and just thought I'd share what God has put on my heart. Love you all! Stay blessed and have a great weekend!

10.01.2009

Asleep in His Arms

Well, October is now upon us. I am extremely excited! I love the beginning of a new month because it's like a fresh start, a new season, a time to be who God has called me to be. It's amazing!!

So, I have had such a longing these past few days to just sit with the Lord and lay in His lap and just let all my thoughts and emotions out. I kinda feel like I've held in all my emotions and kept them from Him. I usually sit and listen to the Lord and talk with Him, but I just really haven't wanted to the past month. I feel like all these problems keep piling up and no matter how much I do this or that nothing happens. I guess that's better than having something happen that ends up being more than I can handle.

But you know what? God showed me something that has changed my mind a little bit. He has shown me and is showing me that it's time to lay down the shell that I have been placing around my heart. That it is time to not be afraid to show my emotions and heart to Him and to other people as well. It's hard, really hard, for me to show my emotions. I have always been somewhat emotional, but I don't show that to people. I feel sometimes, like if I show my emotions to other people then they will take advantage of that.

God has been speaking to me and He is speaking to you too and this is what He is saying-

"My Beautiful Child,
I love you. I love you as you are and nothing can ever change that. I want you to open your heart to Me. I know you have been hurt before, but I will NEVER hurt you. It might be hard for you to believe but if you will give Me a chance to love you and take care of you then you might find out that I am serious. Remember this - I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY MUCH!"

Today, at some point (whenever I get some spare time) I am going to crawl up into my Daddy's lap and just let everything out. I need time to cry, to scream, to pray, to worship, to get everything off of my chest. I am going to fall asleep in His arms and let Him reveal Himself to me. And maybe you need to sit in the Fathers arms too. Sometimes it's the best to just let it ALL OUT. Because when we lay everything at the feet of Jesus we can be blessed so much more than you or me could ever think. Stay blessed!!! And happy October 1st!!