She had dreams and hopes, ya' know.
She thought maybe she would meet him someday. Sure, he hadn't been around for most of her life and had made no effort to try and be a part of it, but she was positive that a part of him thought about her. A part of him, however so small, loved her.
Now, she'll never know.
Because he died a year ago. Those fantasies of meeting him one day, getting his side of the story, finding out where his life went so many years ago will never come true.
That girl is me.
But that girl is not just me alone. I stand with many sisters (and brothers) who have no father in their lives.
So, I'm here to tell you, I know how it hurts.
I know what it's like to watch all your girlfriends sit with their Dad's on Father's day and celebrate him... and you're just by yourself, waiting for this day to be over because there's not much to it for you.
I know what it's like to have people step in and try to fill that void for you, but no human being can help you not feel broken.
Like a doll on a shelf that's missing a shoe and because of that no one wants her, you feel that way too. As if, because you don't have a father physically by your side, you're broken and worthless and you don't matter now.
But you do. We do. And we aren't fatherless, either.
Who would value you? God the Father!!
Those words might not mean anything to you... yet. It's a painful process and a somewhat blind one, because what person knows how a Father acts unless they have one? But He will show you, as He shows me every day, just what a Father is.
You will learn to accept His love, a Father's love, and you will begin to see what it means and looks like- a cross. Not just a cross, though, a man, fully human, fully God, hanging there; dying. And He did that because God loves you so much that He doesn't want you to stay broken.
So, beautiful girl, you should know your life has value and you're not hopeless just because your earthly father isn't around. He (God) made you valuable. Read Psalm 139 and let it soak into your heart. You matter.
God LOVES you.
And to the father's who may read this: your job is more important than you know. It's a blessing. It blesses you and it blesses us, so please don't take it lightly. Love your children as Almighty God loves His (and you can only do that with God's help, so don't be afraid to ask for it). You matter.
Let us love the Lord with every part of us and know that the broken places will be healed by Him. Amen.