I felt it in the early morning.
The beast. Awakened yet again. The gloom and darkness pulls so heavy.
Go back to sleep.
Close your eyes.
Pray. Don't give in.
Those are lies. Don't listen to them!
Oh... it's gonna be a day. Just hold on.
The thoughts are always swirling.
But the thoughts? The thoughts I can deal with through God. The feelings though? Those are much harder to turn away from. The anxiety, the depression... oh yes. I know those too well. The lies from Satan, the lies from the past, the lies in the present... all congregate to the bottom of my stomach and the inside of my heart.
They seep through the crevices and then decide to explode. Causing not only my head to spin, but my heart to plummet as well.
Oh, God. Lord, it's dark. It's scary. It's hard to explain. I know You see. I l know you hear. I know You're here.
Tell that to your heart. Tell that to your mind. Speak it. Sing it. Know it. Believe it. Darkness cannot overcome light.
Jesus, help me.